A Head Full Of Plush

When life coils up around me I am becoming tight and tensed, hard, stiffened and ready to strike. When my mind is alert, when action is needed, when I am walking out there then I am a constant stranger to all my environments. When I need to act, when I am asked to follow, whereever I have to state my individual needs - there I am raising my shield, deflecting the death from above while my blade struggles to drive off those of my enemies. Battling against hordes, battling a war against a neverending enemy, battling a campaign against universe and fate under the flag of my paradigms: perseverance, humility and dedication.

When I coil up around life, when its streams circle through me and when my mind expands to vast reaches then I become universal, all and nothing. Leaving all customs behind, opening up, dissolving in my surroundings. All fears gone and time itself meaningless I cannot live life but still this is the undefined space I long for. Shelter, retreat - embrace your long lost child, welcome it home and together we cry rivers of salvation. I cannot imagine anybody not able to visit this place - is must be a terrified being.

Come to Zucchabar.

Today I got my long awaited package which I desperately needed for one of my university classes. Inside was one of those things I had never owned up to this day: a camera. Now a very decent Nikon D80 found it's way into my possesions and I am completely thrilled by shooting my first simple photos. Nothing's secure, neither cats crossing my way nor people I met, everybody and everything seems to be a possible picture to take.
But the most important thing is: I finally understand. Before this semestre photography was a complete mystery to me but now it reveals its inner secrets to my eyes. And it's so beautiful.
Anyway, Thursday to Monday we are going to travel to London. Just a few days but we need the distraction and London just plain rocks. After a few years I finally have the possibility to visit the place again. I'll probably go and try out my new toy a bit.

Last week I spent a day on another university project: I was shooting a short film with my colleague P. but we still need to get some shots and all the post production done. But it was fun since we were able to use more or less professional equipment which belongs to the university. I'll keep you updated, maybe it's worth a Youtube-upload.