A Head Full Of Plush

I love Quizzles. Redid one from a long time ago.

I changed from "The Boy Next Door" to something between "The Slow Dancer" to "The Gentleman"

Alright for me.
Test yourself here.

Almost one year ago my life went through a radical change and it still has been going on, developing, turning, twisting and actually it even keeps me out of breath. This may sound a bit pessimistic but it's not. I also feel stronger, more versatile, more confident. Anybody should think twice now before encountering me as an enemy.
Mainly the change was possible because I searched for the legendary "Ground Zero" in my existence. Ground Zero as in Fight Club, a state in ones life, where just a few things matter and one gets rid of all the baggage one does not need. I needed to do that because many of the things which are important to others do not necessarily apply to me and whenever there's a rule I cannot accept I cannot follow it. There were quite many of those. Quite essential ones. So, I was not only lurking at the bottom, I was, more accurately put, diving as deep as I could until I found hard, solid rock.

Hard, solid rock is a good thing to stand on. It also is a good reason not to dive deeper.

Then somehow I started signaling from down there, shouting upwards, flashing lights et voilá my current girlfriend came along. And while standing down there in the dirt I suddenly realized where I wanted to go and where I wanted to be. Not that I would be there already nor that it would have been an easy job since then. Not that I would have been able to accomplish the change without the helping hand of my baba nor that I would not be able to fall again. But now I am back in the game, fellas. I am here, heavily armed to the teeth, uncompromising if necessary and more honest than before. I am here my friends, finally able to ask for your help nad give some back to you.
My free time has vanished, simply because I am reborn into life. Yeah, I know it's sounds pathetic but the phoenix has risen from the ashes after he had incinerated himself.

Thanks to my baba, to Benedikt, Steven, Christopher, Alex and Marei. Thanks to my family, especially my parents and my brother. Thanks to Marion, Nomi, Christian, Steffi and Alex G., to an african goddess, nickname chick, three ladies (two of them with four legs), to Miss Assassin and a certain diva. Even to putiput who provoked me to confront myself.

Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you
Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you
Returning nightmares only shadows
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright

Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders
The sirens inside you waiting to step forward
Disturbing silence darkens you sight
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright

The streets outside your window overflooded
People staring, they know you've been broken
Repeatedly reminded by the looks on their faces
Ignore them tonight and you'll be alright

Comments, Pings and Trackbacks are back online. Be happy now. And you are also invited to talk back to me again. Hallelujah.

Newest changes in my life version 3.21beta include:

- Moving together with my gf in the beginning of July. We will accomodate us in her present flat to make a temporary home and to keep on searching for a better place from there. I may come to the conclusion that it would be nice to invite over some friends of mine. Not all at the same time, of course, but I like the general idea.

- Facing some of my past, present and future problems which do have a severe impact on my life and which I was not able to admit before. Maybe there will be more on this topic later but for now I first want to swallow and digest the whole thing... or at least the juicy parts of it.

- Lots of projects for June will keep me quite busy. So please don't mind if I am not updating or communicating. These projects are:
# developing a website for my good friend Steven
# an editorial design for university (The U) , more specified later on.
# a short movie done with my colleague Pawel, also for The U
# a poster for typography in The U which is about... typography.
# a presentation for my philosophy course.

Additionally some more things, like getting an appointment with a shrink and an operation for my weirdo-eye. I am sick of it. Maybe even more later you'll get updated pics of my new haircut and if you are really lucky of my now hairless back. Gf waxed my fur down which has been a funny procedure. Even though right now my back looks like streusel-cake due to non-sufficient cleaning and desinfection procedures. The muscles look nicer without the hairs.